Its Tata To Udupi ! :(
Iv Lived my Entire life in this place Called Udupi ! Every breath of my life was in this place ... other than those small outings once a year with true friends i can hardly count ...
Well now its time to bid Bye to this place ! Netherland is calling ..
I'll be leaving this place ... ! Sometimes i wonder " Why , Why Me ? " ! Sometimes I'm like " Wow , Is this happening ! " ? Why this confusion ... Lemme Explain
I'v been pampered by my family , relatives , showered with this endless love , been given everything .. a Life filled with no regrets ! Now i have to walk away .. walk away from paradise .. ! People say its an experience , its the future ?!! How is it an Experience ? I dont need this experience ! I do not need this future if i have to walk away from the only people who have loved me knowing all the mistakes iv committed , knowing how i am !
I owe my life to my family who have given me everything and now i have to walk away to study ? TO study !!!!! Beat that !!! I have never liked studying but i have to for the " FUTURE " ! Man i just wish that word dint exist sometimes ! I do not even know how long is it for ! For an year or For Four !
I'll miss my Mom the most n then my grandma n then my uncle n aunt n her kid ( Monisha ) ... They mean the world to me ! I am the last guy to show that love in the front to them ! They think i do not care .. But i wish they knew how i feel inside ! I'm filled with this guilt of not being able to show them how much i love them ! I cannot afford to be away !
Its supposedly the best career option ever But at the cost of this ? Its gonna be hard for me .. hard for someone whose never been away from home ! Always had a place to come back to , a place called home , come back to A family who will love me no matter what i do ! These last few days is gonna take a toll on me , its already begun ! I do not even want to imagine what will happen later !
I know every person in this place , every pothole dat appears from nowhere in these roads ! Dats how much i know of this place ! Perhaps its time to move on to a new place ... Netherland ( The City of Dreams ) ... I dont want to .. but i have too ! But Believe Me , I will be back ! Back to where i belong !
As i put my thoughts across these blogs which i wonder if people would read ... hopefully i come across people who would understand the agony i currently am in !
hey..
i did read the blog :)and i can relate in some ways as to what you must be going through...i cant imagine how it's gonna be...the world out there that I'll be soon stepping into. leaving everything familiar behind, leaving the coziness of home and the loved ones.
i can also understand the guilt of not being able to express yo love to yo family..its strange that we can be so expressive with our frens, but we shy away from doing the same wen it comes to family...forget actions its much more hard to express in words..!
i jus hope you manage to convey yo love and care to them before you leave :)
goodluck for the "future" ;)
I give up ! :)n thanks for the comment .. appreciate it !
know what brotha,
its been a ride man....all the times weve spent though not alot but a few and for me im gona treasure each moment where weve gone through alot and its gona be hard without you man....when i think of you meehal i can only think of being happy and being consoled or being crazy and doing things no dude or dudette would ever dare lol remember that kinetic honda that broke down uphill to manipal and i swear mr.mehaal rai ive never walked as much in life as much as you made me run that day with you riding the wounded kiney and laughing at me pulling my pants up and runing like rocky balboa......jeez those gaming days or getting sloshed in downtown and you were always the one who would have the last laugh grrr wait till you come back,:D
it was fun brotha everything,every moment,every memory will be cherished and dude you better get youre dutchified arse back to india in a year.gona miss u bud,
will keep in touch bro,
regards and well wishes,
monish.